Easing back. March update

Brutal honesty... peri-menopause is really beating me down. From the physical aches to the mental depression and sleep-deprived nights from insomnia to night sweats. I do take supplements to try to combat some of those symptoms.  Sometimes it seems to work, other times not. Many times I find my mental attitude of "just fuck it" sometimes wins. I've had this battle on/off my whole life. It really does take continuous ongoing work to combat those negative thoughts, just like working on your body takes a continuous consistent effort. 

The other night I was seeing my memories on Facebook of some of my fitness journey postings. I've basically been repeating the same lose/gain of the same 10-15 lbs over the past 10 or so years. Each time I've lost that weight I always think it'll be the last and I'll do good and maintain that weight loss....just to end back up where I was before. (@165-170#) At 53 years old and in peri-menopause this time around I'm really struggling mentally. I am so discouraged and in a depressing state of returning back up in weight again...and so quickly. I'm literally back to where I was literally a year ago. 

How can I turn it all around again? 

I've started new workout programming. It's a tempo based routine. I just finished a 2nd week of an acclimation phase. This week should start increasing the weights to begin building and challenging the muscles. 

I do feel I have to accept that I won't get back to my goal of 150# by my beach vacation the end of May. I just haven't gotten my calories down and disciplined enough. I kind of just feel I don't want to go back to the detailed macro tracking. Maybe if I can just input my favorite recipes that meet my protein/calorie needs i couod just rotste through some of my favorites and not feel I'm having to stress over hitting my macros every day. I do know I tend to get caught up in mindless snacking. 

Some days I can't stand where I'm back to. Some days I just feel like quitting. But I walys come back to the thought and belief that muscle is the fountain of youth. And I feel I just can't give up. I just want my muscles and strength back and to not feel old and plump. I know I go back and forth between saying one thing but yet doing the opposite. 

Maybe I need to get back to writing down positive affirmations. Just thinking about something doesn't seem to make things happen. I need to instill belief in my inner being that I can and will do what needs to be done to restore my muscles and strength. I need to keep going, no matter what. Let consistency win. 

I know I've probably babbled on and on, but if no one is reading this blog it doesn't really matter and it's a way of getting thoughts out of my head. 

Overcoming challenges and making another comeback

 Hello, warriors

I have been sidelined for a few weeks after I suffered an overuse tendon issue in my right wrist/thumb.

The past 6 months have been a challenge. I strained my lower back in September and then I injured my right wrist/thumb the end of January.  

I have basically sabotaged myself and my diet and have put back on the weight I lost last year. I certainly did not practice regret prevention and have put myself back in nearly same spot I was in last year at this time. I am so disappointed in myself. Some days I just feel like giving up. 

But, I will never give up. 

I've done some researching and found that maybe my body has been in a state of under-hydration and has possibly contributed to the tendon issues in my wrist. So I'm going to experiment with drinking some "electrolyte water". (Potassium/sodium). Hoping that will help hydrate my joints and tendons better and also aid in physical recovery from my job(which is physical and repetitive in nature on many of my joints) and even workouts in gym. 

I try to get in a daily short walk with our doggy. 

But am ready to get back into the gym and get focused on my diet and really learn from my many years of inconsistencies and mistakes. 

My husband and I are planning a road trip beach(Virginia Beach) vacation for Memorial Day weekend (end of May) and I need to get a much better looking beach body. 

Stay tuned for what's to come. I will try to continue posting, and remaining open and vulnerable with my ups and downs.  This is not a straight line journey, certainly as I am entering the world of peri-menopause/menopause. 

#nevergiveup #nevertooold  #fitover50  #believeinyourselfagain  #justshowup #consistencyiskey  #menopausejourney  #electrolytewater  #hydrationismorethanjustwater #heartandhydration

Start of Week 5. Monthly progress report

 So January didn't end so good. The last Thursday night of January at my job I injuried my right wrist/thumb. Not sure exactly what happened, but I experienced a sharp stabbing pain in my right wrist. I wasn't able to continue working. I went to the workman's comp Dr on Friday morning who told me I probably experienced  'radial styloid tenosynovitis'. 

So, i haven't been able to do my workouts past few days. And last week I was doing several 12 hour shifts and wasn't sleeping good, so missed Wednesday through end of week. 

I did monthly progress pics and measurements today(Monday). I've dropped a few lbs, but have been fluctuating up and down most of month. My measurements remained the same. So, I haven't gone backwards,  but also no progress, in my mind.

Today I did a 3x3 booty band workout and some wrist prehab.

Week 4 keep pressing on

 Start of week 4. I haven't been perfect, but I keep pressing on. I've missed at least one workout a week, I think. My diet hasn't been great, but it hasn't been terrible, either. My weight has kind of hung around 163#  That's about 10 lbs heavier than I want to be. I haven't been tracking like I was either. I think I got tired of always thinking about it. But I know I need to either track or come up with a meal plan I can follow, to make sure I'm eating a heakthy calorie amountvand to make sure I get in enough protein.

Today's workout was dedicated to my really good friend, Griz. Today is his birthday.  He's been my biggest supporter and encouragement for continuing my journey through the past 11 years.  He's believed in me when I didn't believe in myself.  We all need someone like that. 

Starting Week 3 No one but you

 Starting week 3. Upper body day. Starting to feel like strength is increasing finally. 

Do you really believe you can reach your goals? Do you really believe you can be strong again? Do you believe you can lose weight or transform your body? Do you believe you can maintain your body composition once you reach your goal?

If you feel like you're doing this alone, do you believe you can keep pressing on doing this by yourself? Why do you feel you "need" to do this "with" someone? 

This really is a journey of one. No one can do this for you. And you can't make anyone else do it with you if they don't want to. 

Some people say they need someone to do it with or push them. No You Don't!! I believe your reason why isn't powerful enough if you think you need someone else to push you. It's because you really don't believe you can do it. 

You Need a powerful reason why and you Need to Believe You Can do it!! 

No one else but you!!

#justshowup  #nevergiveup  #nevertooold  #powerfulreasonwhy #believeinyourselfagain  #BeUnstoppable  #fitover50 #fitover40

Power of Belief

 I was listening to a podcast about fitness related topics. They were talking about different controlled studies about various weight loss/workout topics. They were discussing how no matter the sunject that the ones who were told something, whether a placebo or not, as long as they believed it, it would result in a change. (Hard to explain. Lol) Basically, if you believe something, it is more than likely to happen. 

What are you believing?

What are you believing about yourself? About your health? About your life? 

If you in believe something enough, you WILL make it happen. 

Week 2

Week 2 Muscle & Strength

 I don't train to look young. I train to look like I can kick ass! Lol

In actuality, now that I'm in my 50s I am leaning more towards training for strength and retaining/improving my lean muscle mass. To stay strong into my older years.

That's not to stay that I don't want to look good or have less body fat. 

I want to be one of those women in her 60s and 70s who other women look up to and be like "damn, you look good and are strong for your age.