It has been over a year since I've been here sharing. About 10 years ago I was part of a private fitness group that incorporated blogging/journaling in the fitness challenges. What I found, for me, was that writing and sharing my journey via my thoughts in this matter was very therapeutic and fulfilling for me. It serves as a means to get my thoughts outside of my mind, where they can be trapped and keep me in a holding pattern because I am not truly processing my thoughts but just letting them ruminate in my mind.
I have to create my own positive energy! and not let my circumstances
or other people dictate how I think and believe about life.
I've
been told that it's not just our bodies that make me look sexy but it's
the inner confidence that I exude that makes me a beautiful, badass
woman! And I only become that by pulling myself up by the boot
straps and decide I am a positive energy source. Holding onto negative
energy wears me out, from the inside out. Negative energy drains me.
Negative energy ages me! At 48, I refuse to allow that to continue to
happen. I won't be perfect, but I'm going to do my best to make it
happen.
What I am needing to do is change my daily focus in what I am doing and thinking and believing about life and what I am capable of. I have been slowly allowing myself to sink into a negative energy bubble. I was allowing my circumstances and other people's actions affect my mindset and was holding onto negative forces. I finally got to the point of a "fuck it!" attitude. In a way that was what I needed. It allowed me to let go of the negative energy I was holding onto. In a way I was releasing that energy by saying, "Fuck this! Fuck the crap that is keeping me in a negative space!" I can't control what other people say or do. And it's not about me! But I was allowing those things to be about me. I had to come to realize that other people's actions are not about me. I have to let that shit go!!
So I am about to embark on yet another "Mission".
Mission: If you say that you have a mission, you mean that you have a strong commitment and sense of duty to do or achieve something.
My Mission is to be a force of positive energy with an inner confidence that embodies me as a beautiful, badass warrior woman!
Stay tuned!
