Mission 5: Genesis T-63 making progress

The days already seem like they are just going by so quickly.  And I continue to ask myself, "Am I giving 100%?"  Some days are yes, some are more like 98%.
The "off" parts are mainly timing of eating and quantity of food.  One night I had a couple of cookies, but besides that I am doing great.  I am  loving my workouts and am still progressing in weights and reps.  Tonight was lower body, consisting mainly of squats.  Heavy lifts of 3-5 reps.  Barbell squats I am up to 135# (which is good for me).  (up from 115# three weeks ago)  Progress!
I do believe I am seeing changes in my comparison from day 1 on November 21.  I feel "tighter".

My December Promise:
I keep eating right.
I remember this is my dream.
I work through the pain.
I keep smiling
I wake up every morning Determined to go to bed with satisfaction.
I remind myself, I am not alone.
I drink more water.
I push harder.
I do not give up. Ever.
I am unstoppable.



I am seeing changes for sure. for sure the tummy and hips.  I have not taken any measurements since day 1.  I will do that next week.  But I am confident I am making progress and positive changes. 

Mission 5 Genesis T-71 My December Promise

I found this awesome pic on facebook today. I have printed it up and put it up right in front of me just above my computer so I can see it every day.



It has been a good two days since my last post.
The biggest thing has been keeping the question, "Are you giving 100%?" forefront in my mind.  Also the thought that if I am not giving this program my 100% commitment, then my word means nothing.  I want to be a person of character and integrity.  And I do that by living my core values and beliefs.
I have decided to allow myself a few "off plan" treats (popcorn and a few pizza breadsticks). And to me, these food items I am not considering as taking me off that 100% commitment.  I have been sticking pretty close to eating every 3-4 hours.  And the past few days my tummy just feels like it is "tighter".

I think I need to change the wording to this poster.
"I keep eating right.
I remember this is my Dream.
I continue to work through the pain.
I keep smiling.
I wake up every morning DETERMINED to go to bed satisfied.
I am not alone.
I drink more water.
I push harder.
I press on!"

As I did my HIIT cardio tonight a lot of self talk was going on.
"Give it 100%!"
"think about how awesome you going to look and feel come Feb. 14."
I have my PRW taped to my elliptical so I can see it as I exercise.  It was "speaking" to me.  "If you really want this, you're gonna have to work for it.  It's just not going to come to you.  I'm not going to just sit by and molly coddle you, I'm going to push you.  If you really want this, you have to believe.  You've done this before and you can do it again!
Don't put your head down!  Look up!  Keep your eyes on "me".  Focus on the why.  Focus on the dream.  the harder you push the closer you get.  If I am really your PRW you will keep me in your heart and you will know I am with you in every moment.  Keep going, you're almost there. "
These were the things I was saying in my mind.
And it worked!

Here are side by side comparison from day 1 to today.

Mission 5 T-73 Openness

Openness.  willingness or readiness to receive (especially impressions or ideas).(free Online dictionary)

I have found myself saying that "I am Open ..." a lot lately.  I do believe it started shortly after my divorce was final the end of October.  I remember saying I was open for what was to come the week I was in Jersey with Elaine.
I wanted to soak in every moment I was there, which to me, is to be open to the experience.  Elaine shared some things with me that, if I wasn't open to receive those ideas it could have had a negative effect.  But I remember saying I was open to whatever she had to say.
I believe that "openness" is what allowed me to not react negatively to losing my job only one day upon my return back home.  I remember praying, "Ok, God, I am open to whatever it is you have for me.  I am not afraid.  I trust in You."
The very next day, I got a call from a friend who had no idea I had just lost my job, offering me a possible part time job.  That same day I also had two people contact me "out of the blue" about helping with weight loss/training.
I believe because I was open to what was to come, that things were opened to me.  I do believe "things" don't just come to you unless Someone believes you are ready to receive.
Elaine shared with me some "hard" questions and also a blog post that said "HELLO!!" to me.  When the student is ready(open to learn) the teacher appears.  I am open to what is before me.  I am open to the "hard" questions.  I am open to finding my own answers.
Some of those answers has prompted me to take action.  To be committed to my dream, to be committed to the outcome, to be committed to the process.

My sister has "volunteered" me to be her hair color model on Monday.  She said the only "requirement" is to be open to whatever the instructor wants to do.  I told her I was open for whatever.  I believe the outcome will be awesome, because I am open to it!

I believe if we lived "closed" lives we will not reach our potential, nor will we dream dreams and go after our dreams and goals.  When we open ourselves up to the possibilities, the possibilities come to us.  Mind you, there is action involved once we are presented with the opportunity, idea, dream.
The most important action to take is the first step.  I was reminded of this tonight in an instant message from a gal on facebook I hardly even know.
How does this happen?  I am Open.

As Carlos has reminded us today:

"Because it is commitment not words that keep us on task.

Obviously this is not for everyone.

Discipline feels no obligation to offer an apology for the process that forges bone into steel- so we shouldn’t be looking for it. Nor does it have ears to hear complaints- no one has to do this, anyone can bail out leave at any time.

But if we embrace the process then we will be transformed into something that we never were but always wanted to be."

To me this says, Be open to the process and put action to it by being committed.  Words mean nothing unless we put into action the commitment. I believe this is what Elaine was thinking when she asks the question, "Are you giving it 100%?  If not, why not?"   If I am not giving 100% to the commitment of working this program with all I've got, then my words mean nothing!  Then this mission does not hold it's true meaning.
I am "embracing the process" and am transforming into something I never have been, but always wanted to be.   I am not the same person I was, because I have been OPEN to change and growth.
I am OPEN!

The past few days since I answered those questions I have been committed 100% to the process.  I am having some awesome workouts.  I am eating the way I need to.  I am making right choices that will take me closer to reaching my goal.  Today I feel thinner.  My muscles are feeling good and worked.