Get Clear About What you want

So in my previous post I posted action steps to plan for success.  One of them was to Get clear about what I want and to write it out in detail.... this is the beginning.  my first thoughts and ideas of about what I want and who I want to be to reach my dreams and goals. I suggest you do the same.

Get clear about what I want. Write it out in detail.

This really encompasses Mind, Body, and Spirit.

The mind being the thoughts and beliefs I have.

The body encompassing my physical body.

The spirit being the Higher and Inner being of who I am.

(the nonphysical part of a person that is the seat of emotions and character; the soul.)

When I think about what I want I think first about who I want to be as a person. The thoughts I want to have. The beliefs I want to live out. I want my thoughts and passions to be positive and full of life and love.  I believe it is those thoughts and beliefs that determine who I am are evidenced in my body outwardly.

I want to be a person of integrity.  As in when I say and set out to do something, that it is done.

I want to be a positive person. A positive force in other people’s lives. A positive force in my own life. I want my words and thoughts to line up with being a positive being. A being of faith. A being of Love…living in love, showing love not just towards others, but more so towards myself.

This journey is so much more than what I can do with my physical body, but so much more about the mind and spirit of who I am as a person.

I want my spirit being to be a person at peace…to live in peace.  To be a person of faith.  To not fear or doubt, but to have faith.  Faith in a God who has all in His Hands. 

My thoughts will turn into beliefs as I dwell on them.  And those beliefs turn into actions.  So I know I must have right thoughts.

A true transformation is one of and starting with the mind and one’s thoughts. 

What I want: Thoughts of…

Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse.(Philipians 4:8)

righteous, virtuous, good, honorable, upright, decent, worthy, moral, ethical, reputable

respectable, genuine, admiration in a powerfully irresistible way. courteous, kind, and pleasant. Compassionate. deserving effort, attention, or respect.

commendable, admirable, laudable, worthy (of admiration

So at it pertains to my physical body…. My thoughts will turn into beliefs as I dwell on them.  And those beliefs turn into actions.  So I know I must have right thoughts. And in many ways, those actions show as evidence outwardly through my body. A true transformation is one of and starting with the mind and one’s thoughts. Thoughts and beliefs I want to have about my physical body:  I am worthy and deserving of having an amazing fit body. I am worthy of achieving it. I do my best each moment before me. I care about my body. I love my body. I Love its “faults” and its strong parts. I am strong. I am sexy. I am confident. I treat my body with honor and respect. My health is important. My body is already amazing. I am committed to caring for my body. I am a guardian of my body.

How would you plan to succeed?

So here is where I begin... Questions by my mentor, Carlos DeJesus, that I am to answer. 
But the answers require an ACTION on my part.  My answers are not the end..it is only the beginning!  If you've lost focus on your dreams and goals, you must also ask the questions and find your answers. and then take ACTION. and begin...

In the past what do you think were the reasons you got off track from pursuing your goals?

I lost my focus.  Distractions. Lack of belief in accomplishing my goal.
 

How would you remedy that? ReGain Focus. Eliminate or reduce distractions. Have Faith in the process

Regain focus by (action steps)

1.  Visual:  putting my dream/goal in front of me every day. either by way of physical pictures and/or mental pictures.  I can use my own picture from when I was at my best in 2010.

2.  Write/Read:  Get clear about what I want. write it out in detail.  Why do I want it?

3.  Verbal:  use positive self-talk. read out loud what I want. 

Affirmation: I am focused on my physique goals because I keep it in front of me every day. I am clear about what I want and I use positive self-talk to remind myself that I can do it and to instill belief in myself and my abilities to reach my goals. 

 Eliminate or reduce distractions by (action steps)

1. Plan/Prepare:  Plan and prepare my meals ahead of time.

2. Log off social media when I Need to do my mental homework(journaling, affirmations.

3. Self-talk: self-talk through situations where wrong food choices may be tempting. Be more conscious of thoughts.
Affirmation: I plan and prepare my foods ahead of time because it is worth it to reach my goals. I am more conscious of my thoughts and direct my thoughts towards my goals. By logging off social media I am able to journal and keep my mental muscles working to reach my goals.

What steps would you take?  Keep putting my goal in front of me. any distractions need to be turned in to affirmations, declaring what it is/who I want to be. Use my thoughts and words consciously to reaffirm my goal. Declare my Belief in the process and to keep the faith.

How would you plan to succeed?

I need to keep writing and speaking belief into my being and into my goals.  Journal the process.

Would you be willing to do these things? yes.

Would you be willing to share your Journal Entries? yes I actually miss the "blogging" aspect of my weight loss journey and sharing it with those who may also benefit from my words.

Do you find any of this helpful? yes. it forces me to stop and think and put it down.  because sometimes just thinking is not enough to be able to move forward. 

What would be the end result of you using this model? I become more conscious of my thoughts. Based on past experience, this has helped me in my journey. not just with weight loss but with life.

"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice."

12/12/2014

"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice."
— Wayne Dyer

Where to begin…..I’ve been wanting to get back to blogging for a while. But it seemed I never had the words to share. What I have found is that this journey is not a straight line.  It is full of many ups and downs…at least that has been the case for me. 

But what has stuck for me is that no matter where I am in this journey it is always a choice!

Back in 2006 I was miserable. I had to motivate myself. There was not anyone in my household who had a desire to be healthy and fit. I made a choice.  I did whatever had to be done to reach my goal.  But it wasn’t just about my weight and my physical body.  It was so much more.  The state of my body was a result of the state of my inner being.

Now let’s jump forward 8 years! (Wow! 8 years!! I can hardly believe it has been that long!)

I have come so far in this journey of self.  I have grown so much. Yet, there is still yet more to learn.

Just when I thought I had it figured out I slowly felt myself sliding back in to some old bad habits. But these have not resulted in complete failure, but in lessons learned.  About self and about choice.

A very high point for me in recent times was last summer(August 2013) the weekend of my little sister’s wedding. But in reality, it was the growth up to that point that brought me to that place within myself. 

I found a freedom I had not experienced before in my life up to that point.

For most all of my life up to that point I had an internal fear of what other people thought of me. Would they like me? Would I be accepted? Was I good enough?

With much self talk and even encouragement from those closest to me who believe in me I finally came to a place where I heard myself saying inside my own head, “Who cares what people think. Be you!  OWN your space!  Own your awesomeness!” It is with those words that I found myself on a dance floor, with my eyes closed being present in that moment with my own self! I didn’t need a dance partner to “hide” behind.  I stood up and was my own amazing self.  I didn’t care if people thought I couldn’t dance.  I just wanted to be in that moment and feel all of it.  And I did! I felt amazing! What a rush!  What a high!

The misery I was living in was a trap of social oppression and self oppression. 

I was feeling good about myself and the state of my physical body. I even set a goal, once again, for a photo shoot aiming for a goal date of my birthday in August 2014.  But sometime in May I decided to cancel the photo shoot for a couple different reasons. Even though I could have still pushed forward with my weight training, the mental state I put myself into prevented me from doing that.  I had convinced myself I couldn’t do it.  So many thoughts were running through my mind at that time. I gave voice to my doubts and it brought me down. As I reflect now I see how I used drinking and dancing as a way of covering my own pain of self doubt and disappointment in myself for not believing in my dream once again, for not believing in myself once again.  I remember the day I told the photographer that I was canceling the photo shoot.  I cried. In a way, I was using my newfound freedom on the dance floor as a way of covering my own pain of letting myself down in another way. This is not to say that I wasn’t enjoying myself, because I was!  I love the feeling of freedom of not caring what other people thought of me.  I loved feeling sexy on the dance floor.

But it was my choices off the dance floor that has set me back with my fitness goals/dreams. I was drinking alcohol more. I started eating more junk food. I had stopped working out altogether!

My boyfriend was so supportive and tried his hardest to motivate me to get in the gym and eating better. I appreciated that so much! But you know ultimately it was all my choice! I had to make the choice to change. He couldn’t do it for me.  But after much talking we both decided to challenge each other.  I took some measurements. OMG!!! I was devastated! I finally saw the damage I had done to myself. I had a feeling but the measurements were evidence. I had to do something!  I couldn’t continue in the direction I was heading. 

I needed to believe in myself again.  I needed to believe in my dream once again.

And so I sought out my mentor, Carlos DeJesus.

In the following posts and entries I hope to share with you my journey back to the Warrior Suz.

"Don't be afraid"

It has been quite some time since my last post.  Actually my writing has been quite sporadic over the past couple of years. Many life changes left me with a loss of words.  Many times I would sit down to write and just couldn't find the words that expressed my heart.  I have been at a turning point in my life the past few years.  My life has changed dramatically.  Since starting this journey back in late 2006 I have gone through several periods of great internal growth. In late 2009-early 2010 I grew in ways I never imagined.  Looking back I see it was all in preparation for what was to come in the months and the three years following.  I even had a dear friend say to me, "I just know that everything is going to be perfect ... it has been promised. I have never felt so confident in a brighter future than I do in this moment. Not long to go before you start the greatest growth phase of your short life. What has been before is nothing, compared to what is to come ... and what has been is child's play ... we are just starting the real deal now ... right now ... take hold of it ... don't be afraid"
And she was spot on! 

I've been "itching" to get back into my blogging journey recently.  I hope to capture where I am and the lessons learned along the way over the past few years.  I am in the works of starting up another Muscle Mission.  The Muscle Mission from 2006/2010 ended in a high state.  A new mission had ensued after that only to be cut short due to unforseen life "curveballs".  It is my goal to finish what was started.  Stay tuned. 

100 Club challenge

It has been a while since I've blogged here. 
Since I last was here, I had finished up a 12 week program with Scott Tousignant and his Metabolic Masterpiece program.  Amazing progam.  I love it!  I was all set to go for the next 12 weeks but was given an opportunity to be a part of another community with some other long time online fitness friends, Dougal and Sarah Macdonald from www.fixc.me.  Since June 3, 2012 I have been doing their program and sharing my experiences on their private community with others doing their program. 
Here is a progress pic.

 We are doing a 100 Day Club Challenge.  the prize:  a better body!  All that's required is Focus, intensity, Compliance, eXcellence....FiCX!  In the two weeks since starting the challenge I have made some decent progress...mainly in my hips going from 41.5 inches down to 40 inches.  I like that!

A huge milestone for me that is not fitness related is making myself "public" with a venture into photography professionally.  I have had a passion for photography since my high school days, but never had the confidence in myself to pursue it.  I have received many comments recently in regards to my photographic work.  So I decided to just put myself out there.  Here is my facebook page with sampling of some recent images. SF Images Please check it out and "like" my page.  I'd love your support. Let me know if there is something I can shoot for you.  I am also setting up a deviantart.com webpage to sell my images.

Here is an image I took this week.

Stay tuned for updates!

"Life isn’t a destination, it’s a journey."

"Life isn’t a destination, it’s a journey." 

"Life isn’t a destination, it’s a journey.
We all come upon unexpected curves
and turning points. Everything that happens
to us shapes who we are becoming.
And in the adventure of each day,
we discover the important things in
life and why they’re important."

||A.Unknown||

Everything we have done, said, thought has brought us to this place where we are.
The past year, for me, has certainly brought unexpected curves and turning points. Some I needed desperately and some that I had no control over...yet each one is shaping who I am becoming.
I suppose we can all kind of say the same thing.
Six years ago I embarked on my own journey of self. I was an unfit mother of four young kids ,and at the time, very unhappy in who I was and let myself become. I was over 90 lbs overweight and didn't like who I saw in the mirror,not just the body, but who I was on the inside.
The curves and turning points in my life has also led me to a place I never imagined I'd be. The right people have crossed my path in perfect timing for leading me to where I am today. To learn and grow and discover who I am and what is important in life.
What I have discovered to be the most important thing in life is simply one thing...Love.  A healthy love of self (or a desire to love self) can change your life. And of course a healthy love of/with others in your life can be life changing. Put those together and you can truly be Unstoppable.
the Why for me has changed many times over the past six years of my own personal journey. Six years ago it was to "move away from" what I had become...an obese woman who just plain didn't like herself..from the inside out. My Why today is so much different than that why from six years ago. One of the things that has helped me to not only lose my weight but to also keep it off (and take off the 25 lbs I gained after gall bladder surgery in 2010) is the inner drive in me that just couldn't quit.
And so it is one of the reason's why I am here. I don't quit! I am learning to love self and be at peace with where I am, knowing I can only get better!
After having lost over 90 lbs and keeping it off has proven to be very inspiring to other people in my circle of influence. It is also another reason Why for me to be here. I want to continue to inspire others to do as I have done...and gonna do. At some point in the journey it isn't all about "me" anymore, it is about those other people who are where you once where. I love to encourage others in their own personal journey's. It is an amazing privilege and honor to be a part of someone else's journey.
Speaking of being a part of someone else's journey, I have met an amazing man, who even though was in the midst of his own personal "darkness," had a bright light shining from within that just illuminated so brightly. What has happened is that as a reflection of each others' "light" we have entered a vivacious circle of love and happiness that gives that feeling of being Unstoppable. As I was telling him about My Journey and the timing of our own cycles of training the timing fit perfectly. We have decided to "partner" up and do this together. (meet the Grizz).  We have decided to change things up and have joined in with some good fitness friends of mine (Dougal and Sarah MacDonald) who have developed an amazing program and a private community in which to share our Journey's together with others. 

As I was out of town this past weekend through Tuesday, and had not yet read all through the Journey book we have decided to go full force with everything starting next Monday(May 7) for our "day 1" date. Going the full 12 weeks from that date will put me out about a week or so from my birthday in August. What a perfect birthday "present" to give myself a six-pack! We have been working on our macros and meal planning to meet full compliance of the program.

What a thrill to be sharing this journey with you all.

"Life isn’t a destination, it’s a journey."